Passions...

I really just want to write and make my passions known...and there isn't a better place for that than this. So here goes nothing...

My number one passion is God and following after HIS OWN HEART!
Second place is definitely my family (that is my immediate family!)
3. My extended family
AND Friends!!!! Without these people in my life, I would be nothing. They have molded and shaped and helped me grow into the person I am today and I love them dearly and Passionately!
4. My Mom's Group
5. My College Group...although, it doesn't always seem that way...I feel as though I am always way too busy for it...not to say that I am too busy to take time out and spend with the great College kids we have...but, it's just hard to always plan things when everyone's schedules are different and hectic.
6. My Church: I LOVE CHURCH! And, I specifically LOVE our church. It's really great because we know everyone and they know us and our story. They have prayed for us and continue to. They love us unconditionally, just as churches and Christians should!


And...although I have these passions in my life...I feel like there is SO much more that I could be doing. I want to do as much as I possibly can while living my life on this earth. I want to help as many people as time will allow and touch so many lives that God puts in front of me!

If I died tonight...who would I have made my mark upon? That is the question in my mind ALWAYS! So...who would you have made your mark upon? Think about it...have you done as much as you can to help others and not put them down...but, BRING THEM UP?

There must be more out there that I can do! There must BE! I want to live my life to the fullest for GOD! Do YOU? I challenge all who read this to think of something SPECIFIC that they can do to make an impact on the world in which they live! I also challenge myself!

Be Blessed!

"Even the weakest saint can experience the power of the deity of the Son of God, when he is willing to "let go." But any effort to "hang on" to the least bit of our own power will only diminish the life of Jesus in us. We have to keep letting go, and slowly, but surely, the great full life of God will invade us, penetrating every part. Then Jesus will have complete and effective dominion in us, and people will take notice that we have been with Him."- My Utmost For His Highest!!

I really needed to read these words today. I have been struggling internally for a long time with my spirituality! I haven't 'Let Go' of so many things and I need to! I don't want to keep hanging on to these things. I want the 'life of Jesus' to come in and take over.

Please pray that I can do this! Like above says, I have to 'keep letting go, and slowly, but surely, the great full life of God will invade' me! It will take time. That's the thing...people just think that this happens overnight. It truly doesn't...and it will take time.

I can't share all of my struggles in a blog...but, I will share this. I struggle with Christians! I struggle with the mask that "Christians" put on. I don't want to be that kind of Christian!!!!! I want to be a TRUE NON-HYPOCRITICAL Christian. Someone who loves, no matter who the person is, no matter what they have done and no matter what they are doing now! I want to show the LOVE of Christ to others by being who GOD created me to be and who He continues to make me! I want to not have that mask on that so many other Christians have on! I don't want to be judgemental and critical of others. God meets people where they are, and I truly believe that's what we should be doing, as well!

Lord, Please help me!
Amen!

PHONE....

For the past few MONTHS my phone has died continuously!!! It has been so frustrating. I found out that many other people who have this phone, the phone died on them, as well!

I FINALLY ordered a charger and new battery for my phone, and it's AMAZING...it actually stays charged and works now.

Sorry to bore you with this small little detail in my life...but, I am so excited now that I can actually have a conversation with someone for more than 5 minutes without my phone dying on my!!!! YAY!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY now that you know this...hehe!

Work...

Today is a great day at work. Finally, a great day! Mostly because I'm doing other things rather than just sitting with my client and doing nothing. I'm working on paperwork, on budgets, and helping others with taking their meds. I like this part of my job. I don't like being bored.

I have always felt in this job of mine, that, yes, it's a blessing...but, in another way...it's time spent away from my beautiful toddler boy! If I'm going to work, it needs to be worth my while...not boredom! Does anyone hear me on this?

Well, in the fall, I am going to be quitting. It's either quit and work in the home by either watching other's kiddos or work from home doing other things...but, our sitter will be homeschooling her kiddos, and won't be able to watch Samuel any longer.

I'm okay with this...not sure that our budget will be...but, Mark has a really good full time job with benefits, and I can find work from home! I just don't want to have to pay for childcare if at all possible! On top of paying for Childcare, I would be paying A LOT for gasoline, as it's A HUGE amount in our budget right now as it is! So, I would rather stay at home with Samuel, watch him grow up and possibly work on having more kiddos...all while working from home doing something worth while.

I have often thought about going back to school, as well! UGH...I'm not sure about this, but, it may improve my career in the future. I've always dreamed about teaching GED/ABE to those less fortunate! We'll see! I'll keep you all updated!

Becoming more of a Toddler...

Today I noticed my little baby boy looking more and more like a little boy and thus becoming the toddler that he really is, as he is now 18 months as of yesterday!!! I can't believe that he's that old already!!! I look at him and still remember him being in my belly and feeling him move around and being so very anxious to get to meet this little boy we call Samuel. Then when he finally arrived, I just couldn't believe it!! He was in our arms and no one could take him away from us!!!!!! I kept feeling like they would, though...because being a new parent is really such a surreal thing. But, he was here finally after all the struggles that I went through with premature labor and my fibroid growing and not letting him drop like per normal. And, then during my C-section...I was allergic to the medication they gave me and had HORRIBLE reactions to it and was in recovery for much longer than I should have been.

We are so very blessed to have our little toddler! He is SUCH an AMAZING little Boy!!! We both love him SO VERY MUCH! God has blessed us so much!

Above is a picture I took with my phone today of him Sleeping on the bedroom floor. He was supposed to be in his bed (toddler bed) taking a nap. He's so adorable. And, I'm not Biased at all!!!!

Blessings to you all!!!