WOW have I been Selfish! I am constantly feeling sorry for myself, or wishing that I had this or that or a new car or that we had the money to purchase an actual home. I am such an idiot for thinking these things.
I have been way too selfish...not only for thinking about these things, but for also not putting God first in my life! I have been going along and living this mundane, day to day life, but God has not been in it at all...and I am VERY sorry for that. I don't know what the deal is with me lately...I haven't really even talked to God in a long time. I am busy...but, that is NO EXCUSE! I am sick and tired of playing the Excuse card all the time...there is No Excuse when it comes to Not spending time with God.
I want a relationship with GOD so badly that it hurts...I used to have this FANTASTIC relationship with him. I used to read my Bible every day, journal, pray, do devotions, and go to church and spend time with others doing Bible Studies...and get so much out of it. What has happened to that relationship? Where has it gone? I know that it is my fault! I know that! I am confessing that right now! God has been truly wonderful to me and my family and I have turned my back on him. WOW! I am such an IDIOT!
Please God, Forgive me for this! Help me right now to turn Towards YOU! Help me to let you back in and Keep you here in my heart! I've gone away for WAY TOO Long...and I want to come back! Please Take me Back!!!
Amen!
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Planning...
Well...this has been a fun, fun week! I've played Bunco with my gals on Monday. Tuesday we watched the Holgate's kiddos while they went to Improv class. Wednesday we were going to have College group...but, instead we cancelled it due to lots of finals for the College kids. But, Mark and I cleaned house that night. I stayed up til 4am cleaning and then had a playgroup here the next morning at 10:30am. I made the BEST Cinnamon Raisin Scones, too!
Thursday was the playgroup. Then in the evening Mark went to the Men's Bible Study at church. Friday was work, then I went out for our Mom's Night Out! It was a BLAST! We ate Mexican food and went Bowling! Saturday was also work, then we went over to the Holgate's and watched TIVO'd Survivor and then like 3 or 4 episodes of LOST, of the second season. We are trying to catch up to the show now...but, we are going slowly.
Today, Sunday, Mark had to work because one of his co-workers quit. So, he now has to work every other Sunday until they find a replacement...who knows how long that could take!
Oh my...I am saying all of this to say...we need to SLOW DOWN! I am really tired today...and have been the whole past month. I'm tired of doing EVERYTHING for everyone and not having a week to do stuff for our family! I really don't want to complain, I love helping people and I love leading the groups that I do...but, it wears me out!
So, the title says Planning! I am planning to try to start to calm my life down a little bit! I am planning on not doing as much, and taking it easy more...and not getting stressed out about every little detail of life! Life is WAY TOO Short to do that. I am planning on living life to the fullest, but, also ENJOYING every moment of it!
In May, Samuel and I will be headed to Illinois again for a well needed R&R trip to spend with family. While there...I plan to take it easy AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I don't want to run around and do everything my family expects me to do while there. This will be a trip of Relaxation...not of Stress! If you are one of my friends from home reading this, please don't take offense. I just need to relax, and take it easy this trip and not plan anything while I'm there or for while I will be there! This is a trip solely for the purpose of spending time with family. And for Samuel to spend time with all of his family he doesn't normally get to see. I love you all...but, these is my plans!
As for an update on our family...we are well. Tired, but well. We are going to start having more Family time together and begin taking more walks together, as well as eating a our kitchen table for meals, instead of in front of the TV. Mark and I will be intentionally be spending more quality time together, too. We feel like, yes, we have a child and plan on having more soon, but our marriage comes first. It will be the only thing that we will have left after our kids grow up and move out...so, we need to start getting to know each other even more now. Plus, we need to be a good example of how parents should get along and how parents should love each other for our kids, so as when they grow up they will know true love and how to show your love to another person.
I've ranted way too much now. I hope that this blog finds everyone reading it doing well!
Blessings from our home to yours!
Thursday was the playgroup. Then in the evening Mark went to the Men's Bible Study at church. Friday was work, then I went out for our Mom's Night Out! It was a BLAST! We ate Mexican food and went Bowling! Saturday was also work, then we went over to the Holgate's and watched TIVO'd Survivor and then like 3 or 4 episodes of LOST, of the second season. We are trying to catch up to the show now...but, we are going slowly.
Today, Sunday, Mark had to work because one of his co-workers quit. So, he now has to work every other Sunday until they find a replacement...who knows how long that could take!
Oh my...I am saying all of this to say...we need to SLOW DOWN! I am really tired today...and have been the whole past month. I'm tired of doing EVERYTHING for everyone and not having a week to do stuff for our family! I really don't want to complain, I love helping people and I love leading the groups that I do...but, it wears me out!
So, the title says Planning! I am planning to try to start to calm my life down a little bit! I am planning on not doing as much, and taking it easy more...and not getting stressed out about every little detail of life! Life is WAY TOO Short to do that. I am planning on living life to the fullest, but, also ENJOYING every moment of it!
In May, Samuel and I will be headed to Illinois again for a well needed R&R trip to spend with family. While there...I plan to take it easy AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I don't want to run around and do everything my family expects me to do while there. This will be a trip of Relaxation...not of Stress! If you are one of my friends from home reading this, please don't take offense. I just need to relax, and take it easy this trip and not plan anything while I'm there or for while I will be there! This is a trip solely for the purpose of spending time with family. And for Samuel to spend time with all of his family he doesn't normally get to see. I love you all...but, these is my plans!
As for an update on our family...we are well. Tired, but well. We are going to start having more Family time together and begin taking more walks together, as well as eating a our kitchen table for meals, instead of in front of the TV. Mark and I will be intentionally be spending more quality time together, too. We feel like, yes, we have a child and plan on having more soon, but our marriage comes first. It will be the only thing that we will have left after our kids grow up and move out...so, we need to start getting to know each other even more now. Plus, we need to be a good example of how parents should get along and how parents should love each other for our kids, so as when they grow up they will know true love and how to show your love to another person.
I've ranted way too much now. I hope that this blog finds everyone reading it doing well!
Blessings from our home to yours!
Monday, March 3, 2008
WALKING...
Another week has gone by, maybe two and we haven't posted anything else yet. But, we have an announcement to make...
Samuel is WALKING now! Yesterday he took his very first "real" steps at church in front of so many important people in our lives. They all had their cameras out, I'm sure we will get some pictures at some point for this. Today Samuel took 15-16 steps. He thinks it's a game now...it's really fun to him...and we praise him continuously about it. I am so excited for him! He's growing up right before my eyes!!!
I have to say right this instant that LIFE is great! I think that it is just so important that we have such a great congregation of people in our church that are going to see all of Samuel's milestones, too. I feel that everyone should have this, especially if they don't live near their families, then, at least they have extended family of sorts. God's family! We are truly blessed. You know, I also think that even if you do have family near by, there is NOTHING like a great and true church family who can help raise your little one with you. Man are we blessed!
I also wanted to update everyone on my job situation. I just had my 6 month evaluation (which was actually at 10 months) and it went terrific! I got sooo many great comments from my peers and from my boss. And, since I work with a truly difficult client, and that no one else can handle him as well as I can, they gave me a .50 cent raise...which is .25 more than what they are supposed to give me. I now make more than Mark does, once again. He is very okay with this, though...he always has been. My current wage: $11.25. This is more than I've ever made in my life. I also talked to my boss's about a schedule change/client change...etc. They are SOOOO willing to work with me and this week I'm getting off early in the day so that I can see some daylight. I'll be getting off work by 4:30pm now...YAY! I don't have to stay til 6pm. In two weeks I will be going to only working 3 days a week, too. I am just so thrilled that this is going to happen and that my boss's really like me that they are willing to make this happen. Even if I'm making this much money, I still only want to work 3 days a week so that I can be with Samuel more. I love that boy so much, and want to see even more of his Milestone's!
We are blessed! Read this and be blessed!!
Samuel is WALKING now! Yesterday he took his very first "real" steps at church in front of so many important people in our lives. They all had their cameras out, I'm sure we will get some pictures at some point for this. Today Samuel took 15-16 steps. He thinks it's a game now...it's really fun to him...and we praise him continuously about it. I am so excited for him! He's growing up right before my eyes!!!
I have to say right this instant that LIFE is great! I think that it is just so important that we have such a great congregation of people in our church that are going to see all of Samuel's milestones, too. I feel that everyone should have this, especially if they don't live near their families, then, at least they have extended family of sorts. God's family! We are truly blessed. You know, I also think that even if you do have family near by, there is NOTHING like a great and true church family who can help raise your little one with you. Man are we blessed!
I also wanted to update everyone on my job situation. I just had my 6 month evaluation (which was actually at 10 months) and it went terrific! I got sooo many great comments from my peers and from my boss. And, since I work with a truly difficult client, and that no one else can handle him as well as I can, they gave me a .50 cent raise...which is .25 more than what they are supposed to give me. I now make more than Mark does, once again. He is very okay with this, though...he always has been. My current wage: $11.25. This is more than I've ever made in my life. I also talked to my boss's about a schedule change/client change...etc. They are SOOOO willing to work with me and this week I'm getting off early in the day so that I can see some daylight. I'll be getting off work by 4:30pm now...YAY! I don't have to stay til 6pm. In two weeks I will be going to only working 3 days a week, too. I am just so thrilled that this is going to happen and that my boss's really like me that they are willing to make this happen. Even if I'm making this much money, I still only want to work 3 days a week so that I can be with Samuel more. I love that boy so much, and want to see even more of his Milestone's!
We are blessed! Read this and be blessed!!
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